Oh...... No good

It's been a long time I haven't post anything here...

Although language school is quite easy for me... but I got lots of work to do around here. However, I really want to find some places to express my feelings~

Really, I should not treat people so well...

Every time I tried to treat my friends well, as time goes by, they will start feeling that I ought to do this. Can't they feel my emotion? I tried to hide my feeling and not to ruin the whole trip. Going for a trip is not hard, but dealing with those damn friends is hard. While I planned everything at first, they rejected everything and said that they are going to plan on their own. Fine, I am ok with that, but please give me something really good. The result is fucking suck in the end that they made no decision. What can I say? Am I too nice to them?

I am just like a no paid driver and drive them all around the places, and then? I have to suffer the complains about the car, the musics, the trip? What the fucking responsibility should I take? OK, because they are in my car, I have the duty to update my CDs? I have to renew all the musics in order to satisfy them? Damn, it doesn't make sense.

I don't care if I go there with strangers, coz' I can make new friends anyway... but seems like I just went to some other's party. And the host is always talking about their old stories and all that I can do is sit there and listen. Am I stupid or nut? I made myself calm and try to control the mad feelings... I didn't ruin the trip, but who did?

I am not born to be a freak. Next time, no way~

Damn it

( I am sorry.... I used to be a polite boy.... but not this time )